Farwell 5317

So, I have to move out of my house this week on Wednesday. Don't get me wrong. I'm really excited about moving to a new one that is nicer and starting a new life there, but I'm also a little sad about leaving this one behind. For me this townhouse was mine. It represented everything I worked hard for and I've always been proud of that fact. I know that I will proud of the new house, but it will be "ours" and not mine. I'm an only child. I don't do "ours" very well ( haha) . I'm going to miss all the specail times I had here and the memories I made. I guess this is all part of growing up and trust me, I wouldn't want to stay here for anything in the world, but every now and then I know that this new house will never be just mine and I guess it's a little scary. Anyway, so this week I'm saying farewell to an old friend, thanks for being there for 5 years and helping me make happy and some sad memories. Now off to bigger and better things!!!!!

New Home owner

Sorry I haven't posted anything in along time but I have been really busy with bachlorette parties, I sold my house, and now we've bought a new one! One that is already built and we will move into the weekend before the wedding!!!!!!! I'm so excited! It's over in Fuquay at Lakestone Village! I'll be able to walk to Kohl's, chick-fil-a, applebees, and Dunkin donuts. I mean, what else do you need? ha ha! I can't believe we even found this house! It's exactly what we were looking for and now we don't have to live with Momma and Daddy! Not that I don't love my momma and daddy, but that was gonna weird to come back from a honeymoon and go to my parents house! We close on the house on September 4Th and we'll move in that weekend, but we have both decided that neither of us are going to stay there until the night after we get married. Were not going to leave for our honeymoon until Monday morning so we'll get to spend Sunday night there for the first time together! I'm really excited about it. I'll have more pictures up soon to show you guys!

For Sale By Owner

Okay, So I'm trying to sale my townhouse. I met with a realtor on Thursday to see about listing it with him. He came recommended by the guys at the new house. Well, all the info he gave me was great. The last four 2 bedrooms in my neighborhood all sold in like 37 days and just under $1000 of what they were asking for them! So it looks like maybe my house will go quick. Bad news: he wanted 6% to sale it for me. That's like $9000. There's my new furniture for the new house! So I said thank you but no thank you, and I am trying this on my own. I have a family friend who is a real estate agent and she said she would list it for me on the MLS for $500 and just let me do everything else. So, I am going to try that route. Especially since the information he gave was so good! So, if any of you know somebody who is looking to take advantage of the $8000 tax credit, please send them my way! And wish me luck!!!!!

Rain Rain go away!

So, today did not start great for me! I'm sure everyone noticed the monsoon that is currently taking place in our area right? Well, I'm watching the weather forecast(like I've been doing for a week now and it has has a sun on Wed. for a week) because my Bridal portrait is tomorrow! I have already went and got my manicure, my pedicure, my spray tan, lined up my hairdresser, the make-up lady, and a bouquet! I mean, this is like mini wedding day here!!! My portrait is going to be outside at the Old Well in Chapel Hill. I've wanted my picture there since I was like 5. It's where my grandma had hers and when I was little girl I decided right then and there I was going to do the same thing! But Noooooo, Mother nature decides to call for rain on Wednesday at the last second. So in tears I call my photographer to see what our plan is. I've already told myself mentally that if I have to do it inside at the studio I will just live with it and then on my wedding day maybe I could stop by the old well and take a quick picture! I talk to her and I'm in tears, and she's in tears. Her studio is flooded! So now taking my picture inside is also not an option! Well, the lord must have taken pity on me because the photographer had a cancellation on Friday for 3:00 and my hairdresser had one at 9:00 on Friday, the make-up girl can do Friday, and the flower lady told me"shug, don't worry about it. This has happened before and it will happen again. I'll just make you another one!" So, in the end it worked out but I really thought I was just not going to have a Bridal portrait and all you southern Ladies know that not having a big ass picture of you in your wedding gown over you mom's mantel is just not acceptable! So, think about me on Friday when it's 100 degrees outside. But hey, at least it won't be raining!

Blinded by the light

So, it's been a while but I'm just going to be honest. I've had too much on my plate to even think about what I am going to write on here. I finally have a spare second between trying to get my house ready to go on the market, wedding planning, vacations, and sickness to write about me bleaching my teeth. Or shall I say KK bleaching my teeth. We have this in house bleaching stuff at work and my portrait is in 3 weeks so I wanted to lighten my teeth a little. So I get in the chair and we cram this horrible thing in my mouth called cheek retractors. It's as bad as it sounds, trust me! Then she applies the bleach and we have to sit there for 15 minutes and let it do it's thing! In the mean time, everyone in the office is coming over and looking at me and making me laugh, and KK is trying to keep me from getting the solution on my tounge because it burns your skin when it touches it! Finally 15 minutes are up and I can't stand the cheek retractors anymore, KK sucks the stuff off and I jerk them out of my mouth.Miraculously there are no white burn spots on my gums! My girl KK knows what she is doing. My teeth look great! Whiter but not too bright so that it looks like I have a mouth full of chicklet gum! I'm happy with the way it looks, and then I get home and my teeth on the bottom start KILLING me! They hurt ALL NIGHT LONG! It was like one of those throbing dull kind of hurting that annoys you! Anyway, so I dealt with it and the next day all was better! It was def. worth all the retracting and throbbing! Now my teeth will be pearly white for my pictures! Oh, the things we do to be beautiful!

Big decisions all in the same year.

So, yesterday Bart and I went to sighn a contract and put some money down to buy a new house. We decided getting married, buying a house, and having kids are the three most important things you will ever do in your life, why not get two of them over with this year? Haha. So now, on top of weding stuff, we will be busy building a house. Well, were not actually building it, but you know what I mean! Were both really excited but yesterday we kind of got an idea of what the next four months have in store for us. 10:00 we went to Wake Forest to look at our engagement pictures,Then we drove to Garner to my Mom's bank to pick up some papers I needed for the loan, then it was off to North Raleigh to meet with the Mortgage lender, and after that it was down to Fuquay to meet with the realtor at the new house to sighn the contract. We did not go back home until 7:00. Then when we got home we sarted ripping out the carpet in the upstairs hallway to put down Hardwoods today, after we get back from mowing the grass at the church, and then we go eat dinner at my aunt's house. You get the picture! I brought all of this on my self, but by the time Sept. gets here I am going to be so ready for that honeymoon. Anyway, I hope everyone has a great Mother's day and give your mom's a hug and kiss from me!

M.I.A

Okay, So I know I've been M.I.A for a while, but I am back. I have been super busy with the relay, wedding planning, trying to get my house ready to go on the market, trying to decide on what new house we might like, all sorts of stuff! The Relay went great. We earned a total of $160,000 which is the most we have ever earned! The wedding is coming right along and I am so excited for our day to get here. I'm a little worried about what I'm going to be doing with my free time when it's over. Hopefully, I will have a new house to decorate. We have been putting new carpet down, painting, and cleaning trying to get this house ready to list on the market. So, blogging had kind of taken a back seat right now. I will be back with more stories soon though, I promise! Until then.......I'll be cleaning!

Relay for life!!!!

So, the Relay for life is this weekend and I am very excited about it! We are having a dunking booth and were dunking our Dentists that I work for! Sooooooo excited about that! I'm going to be broke dunking them! I love the Relay weekend! This event means so much to such a little town! Garner has the biggest and most profitable Relay in all of North Carolina! A fact that I am VERY proud of in case you can't tell! So, anyway if any of you guys aren't doing anything Friday night, come out and see me, Dunk a dentist, raise some money for the American Cancer Society, and listen to some good music. My friend Josh Pepper will be performing from 7:30 to 8:15. It's rumored that he may even get me up there with him! The festivities kick off at 6:00 Friday night and go until Saturday morning at 10:30! Come out, it would mean alot to me!

What happend to the time when people cared about people?

What ever happend to the day when people cared about other people. I don't just mean your friends and family. I am talking about people you see around your hometown, at the grocery store, the Dr.'s office. Those people. Last week one of Dr's Father-in-lay passed away. We closed the Garner office in the afternoon, drove an hour to Wade to go to the funeral. That Dr. was very touched that we had all taken time to come all that way to show how much we cared. That is the way I was raised. Well, today we all got our pay stubs and we get a time sheet in every pay stub. The office manager(who works in our Raleigh office) docked all of us a half a day for going to the funeral. In the past, when someone had an immediate family member die, the office closed and you went to the funeral. If you didn't go to the funeral, you got docked time off. I mean, it's only $50 or $60 freakin dollars! If the other Dr.'s are hurtin that bad for a measley $50 I will gladly give it to them, but mostly I am hurt that they are so self-absorbed that all they can think about is the money and not see the human side to what we did. It makes me question is this the type of Dr.'s I want to work for. I took a job in Garner because no matter what people may say about the town, we are a close knit group. Garner is just a simple town where people like you not by the car you drive or the house you live in, but by how you treat someone. Those are the things that matter. I know I am on my soap box again, but there is seriously something wrong with the way Americans are being trained to think! When you work for someone who lives in a multi-million dollar house, has two or three other houses in other states, goes off three or four times a year on luxury vacations, and gives you hard time for a measley three hours or $50 dollars it just puts it all into perspective. Seriously quit spending so much time energy trying to make a million dollars and spend more time on yourself and I promise you will be happier!!!! Okay, I'll stop bitching now!

Go Heels!

So, Monday night was a crazy one! Bart, me and some friends went to Chapel Hill to watch the UNC game! It was a great game!!!!! We ended up at Bub's which is ab ar on Rosemary street! We had a blast there. You know me, I met a lot of people that I didn't know. Got a little Crazy! Then when UNC won, we all headed for Franklin Street! That's when things turned really crazy. The crowd was okay at first and we were down by the bonfire, having a good time, taking pics, then all of a sudden it was like all these people were trying to bum rush us to get to the fire. Well, I got seperated from my group, some guy beside started having a panic attack and swung his arm, hit me in the eyes and I have a black eye! Eventually I found my people but for a second it was really scary! All in all, I will never take my butt out to Franklin Street after something like that again, but I'm glad that I did it. Besides, taking a black eye for the team should make the #1 Fan of the tarheels right??? At least now I have bragging rights!

Foster

I know that this is going to be a sad post, but it's on my mind and I knew I would feel better to blog about it. Dr. K went skiing this past weekend and he boarded his dog (Foster) at the Vet's office. He's had Foster since he was a puppy and he's now 12 or 13. Well, Foster has been getting older and we all knew that he wasn't in good health. So the vet called him on Monday and told him that Foster wasn't doing so good and he needed to get home. Unfortunately he had to fly home and his plane would not get here until 12:00 midnight. He pretty much knew that when he got here, he would probably have to put Foster to sleep. So I know you can imagine the way he felt, probably tore up trying to get home to see his Best friend again one last time. So he got in last night and when he went to the vet's, Foster was in quite a bit of pain and around 2:00 a.m they took Foster outside so he could be under the stars and they put Foster to sleep. All us girls at work are really tore up about this. Dr. K would bring Foster to work with him in the afternoons and he would sit at our back door and just watch us. The kids would love to go sit with him and play with him. Anywhere Dr. K went, so did Foster. There wasn't many trips he made without Foster. So today, we all got together at work and made a donation to the SPCA of Wake county in memory of Foster. This has just made me really think about how one day I will probably have to face this with Macy. I know to other people your dog is just a dog. To you though, it's your family. Macy sleeps with me, she eats with me, every day when I get home she is so happy. She acts like she has just won a million dollars, everyday! There is no human in the world that will love you like your dog! Even when Macy gets a spankin, which she's had her fair share of, 10 seconds later she's jumping up in your lap, licking your face, like it never happened! You get this unconditional love from a dog that you didn't even think was possible. I just hurt for Dr. K because I know that the next few weeks and months are going to be really tough for him. Foster was his Best friend and constant companion. Some people may think it's silly to get so upset over a dog, but I know when something happens to Macy, it will be just as bad as when something happens to my parents or to Bart. Maybe worse, because dogs are so precious and innocent,and you can't explain to your dog what is happening to them and help ease their fears. Everybody reading this tonight, please pray a special prayer for Dr. K. If you have an animal at home, go get them and love on them, kiss them, and tell them you love them! I got home and played with macy for over an hour, and then I took her to pelicans and she got her own sweet cherry Sno-ball! Spoil your animals because their time here isn't that long and they deserve to have fun!

great night!

So, I haven't really had much to blog about lately. Today was a pretty good day. We went and cleaned the church this morning and then tonight we went to Southpoint, went shopping, and then had dinner at Firebird's. I am so glad because I fianlly got my outfit for our engagement pictures. After buying two different things, changing my mind, taking them back! haha. I am so indecisive! I had a hard time because our photographer told us to try and wear something on the dark side because it brings out the features in white people a little better and lighter colors tend to wash you out! I understand that, but I like pretty pastels. So, I finally found a shirt that I like and it's darker than gray but not black either. On the positive side, it makes my neck look skinny and anything that makes any part of my body looks skinny is right down my alley! haha So, now I guess I'm getting ready to go to bed. Sorry I didn't have anything good or juicy to share. Maybe next time I will........

Economy

I've been giving the economy a lot of thought latley. Actually, just money in general. It has taken me a while to realize something. At the end of the day it's really not everything. I used to worry about Bart and I and him passing his test. I know that when he does pass it, he will be able to have a good life. It's also been the root to a lot of our problems and I am just done with it. Sure, it would be nice to have a life where you don't have to worry about paying your bills, your credit cards, if you are ever going to be able to have a house, a family, all of the things we all want. But what are all those things if they don't mean anything to you! One thing I have noticed is that a lot of the marriages that seem to be the strongest one's are the one's where the husband and wife have started out equally and worked hard for everything they have. I truly think that starting with nothing and working your way up to it builds a bond that other people don't have. In the world today everyone seems to want it all and they have to have it right now. People marry each other becasue it makes financial sense. What happend to the days of a young couple starting out in an apartment or a trailer and being happy because they simply have each other. My mom and dad lived in a single wide trailer when they got married. They will both tell you that it's nice to be where they are, but those times are some of thier happiest. Life was simple and things didn't matter to them. When did we become a country that thinks we have to drive big suv's, live in million dollar homes, wear expensive clothes, go on luxury vacations, and if you don't have those things you are a failure. I think the people who have to do those things to be happy are the ones who have failed. This summer will be our first summer going to the lake house that my parents built. I am so excited because it means alot to my dad and I know we will have many memories there that I will cherish forever. I think about in the future when my dad isn't here anymore and I am glad that I will have that house because he wanted it so bad, he dreamed about it, and he literally poured his blood,sweat, and tears into building every stitch of it. Money can't buy that. One day I will be able to tell my children that my daddy built this with his own hands. That is what I think about when I see these people on tv that bought these homes that were like 2 million dollars and now they are crying because they cna't pay thier bills. Maybe if they had a reality check and realized that it's the people you love, the memories, spending time together that means the most and not thier flashy car or expensive house that they can no longer pay for and is probablly destroying thier family. When I think about Bart and his situation I no longer get worried if we will ever have anything. I don't care if we have to sell what we do have and move in with our family or live on the street in a box. At least I will have my family, my friends, and the things that really mean the world to me. America should turn a new leaf and instead of worrying about the economy, stop spending so much time working trying to make a million and devote more time to the family because when the money runs out you will still be the richest person for you have people who love and respect you!

Dress fittings!

Okay, so I went today for the 3rd fitting of my wedding dress and SUPRISE..... it's still not right! The seamstress put boning in it for me because the dress was wrinkling in the front where my rib cage is. Well, it did not help any! So my mom and I are starting to get pissed because the lady promised me when I ordered the dress that it was the way the dress was made and they could fix it. Then, this girl came out of the dressing room and she had on the same dress as me. Turns out, it is the daughter of my dad's best childhood friend! Coincedence! So, she had the same problem and she ordered a sash to go on hers to help hide it. I'm so glad she was there. I LOVED her sash, so the seamstress is going to do the same thing to my dress. Also, I have lost about 5 pounds since my last fitting and when she took it in up top it also helped the situation alot! What started out as the worst situation of my life ended up being really good because I liked my dress before, but now it is so much better! It's amazing what a little sash can do! haha. So now in about a month I will go for my fourth fitting, and maybe this time all will be right! When I got my dress they told me a lot of people have about 3-5 fittings before it is right. I never thought that was true! Now I know why they say that! Everytime you try something on you find something new or something else you want to do to it! I have to remember, it is a dress. No dress is perfect. Anyway, i'm crossing my fingers that I don't have to go back a fifth time because every time I go, it ends up costing more money. I know my mom would be happy! Until then.......

I can fianally breathe a sigh of releif.

So, for those of you who know me pretty well, you know that I stress over EVERYTHING! I stress over my problems, other people's problems, I stress about what I'm going to stress over next! So, my latest stress has been finding a make-up artist for my wedding and portrait that doesn't want to charge me $150 a person! I don't care if she did do Oprah's make-up! I got the name of a girl from Fearrington's list of recommended vendors. She works at the Christian Dior counter in Southpoint, but she also does make-up of her own on the side. I checked her website and really loved what I saw and her prices are good! So I met with her today out at Southpoint! Immediately I liked her. She's very sweet, easy to talk to, and in a weird way was comforting because she's a mom and her daughter just got married and she seemed really into it! She's been doing this for 10 years and I could tell finally I found somebody who knew what they were doing and actually cared about what I wanted and not what was trendy. The thing I liked most about her was, as she was doing my make-up her face would light up when she did something and it turned out good! I'm so glad that I have finally found somebody that I like, that knows what they are doing, and isn't going to charge me some crazy fee for the bridesmaids. I still can't get over the people at Nordstroms saying their girl gets $150 for a bridesmaid. Come one. It's make-up. Not rocket Science! It will come off in like 8 hours! So, I can relax now that I can check that item off my list! For the first time in a few months I am actually excited about my wedding day instead of nervous and unsure! I'm glad to see that everything really is coming together like it's meant to. Now I'm just ready for the day to get here!

Relay for Life

Okay, I know I haven't wrote anything in a while. Between wedding and Relay for life I have been swamped. So, the Relay is coming up next month and I have to say that I am really excited about this one. Kelli and I are on the committee and we handle the entertainment! We have some really great stuff this year. Josh Pepper is coming out and singing, and we have a girl coming from Wilmington who has a phenomenal voice! We also have karaoke going on for you guys who aren't shy about making a fool of yourself(that would be me).Our office is going to do Dunk a Dentist and we will have a dunking booth out there and letting everyone dunk our dentists and maybe some of the assistants!! I know that the Relay for life or the American Cancer Society isn't every one's platform, but this is my favorite event because instead of just targeting Breast Cancer or Ovarian Cancer like Susan G. Koman or the other walks, it targets ALL cancers and puts an emphasis on surviving cancer! Unfortunately I bet there isn't a single one of us whose lives have not been touched by cancer in some way! We all know somebody who has either had cancer or died from cancer. One day I hope to live to see a cure for this disease! In fact, it is so important to me that Bart and I are going to forgo some favors at our wedding and do a donation to the Relay for life in honour of everyone who attends! So, on the weekend of April 24Th and 25Th if your not doing anything, come by Lake Benson Park and check out the Relay! It really is a great time and it is so moving to see how a community can come together for one night, forget all the bad in the world, and just celebrate by having HOPE! Okay, I'll end my commercial now! Have a great weekend!

Sick of snow.

So is anybody besides me sick of snow???? Don't get me wrong. I enjoy it when my office closes and I get to satay in my pajamas ( and not brush my teeth) all day long. WHat I hate about it is when we are closed we have to work on A friday to make it up! I know, all you 5 day a week people are thinking shut up you spoiled brat! I'm just sick of having to work on a Friday! Fridays are my "ME" time. I'm very productive on Fridays. That's my time that I do the stuff I was supposed to do during the week but was too lazy to do. I love going to the gym on Fridays too around 10:00. There's nobody there. Anyway, I know that some people would love to have this problem and I know I sound like a whiney baby! I'll shut up now and go pray for no more snow this year!

heartwarming

So today at work, it was aroung 4:00 and I was soooo ready to call it quits and go home. Then my 4:00 patient got there. It was a hopital follow up. When we take kids to the hospital to do there dental work, we like to see them back in 3 weeks to see how they are doing post-op. So I go get my little boy and his mom. We sit down and are talking and she starts asking me questions about what we did to her sone. Then she told that she could not remember what we did to him. In fact, she dosen't remember anything from Sept. to December. I was wondering why but I didn't want to ask. So one of my Dr.'s comes over to look at the patient and we get into the story.

So this mom has some type of intestinal disease that is terminal and she is also diabetic. Well, a while ago she had surgery and had to have a feeding tube put in. So she noticed that the area around the feeding tube was looking suspicious and she kept asking the Dr.'s at Duke about it, but they told her it was okay and not to worry about it. One day her son founf her passed out on the floor. Well, her son is autistic and he's got ADHD. He's only like 6 or 7. He goes to the phone, calls 9-1-1. Tells them about his mom, hangs up and then calls her freind to come over.

Long story short, she had gotten Mercer from her feeding tube and her organs started shutting down. She had like 15% chance of surviving. Well, she pulled through it and everything is okay now. If her son had not found her and called 9-1-1 she most definatley died that day. I just think this is such an uplifting story that a child who is only 7 with Autism and ADHD could hold himself together, not freak out, and calmy and rationally go call 9-1-1 for his mother. It really warmed my heart. He's a great kid and I know his mom is proud!

Anyway, I thought it was good story and maybe something that would make you feel good. You get tired of always hearing bad. So everybody have a great day and until next time.............

Bathing suit season

Okay, so I bought my bathing suit for the upcoming honeymoon today. Now my mission has officially started. Most of you know I started working out with Shimmel last year, but lately I have been slack. To be honest I don't want to get burned out before crunch time is even close to getting here. I am good for about 5-6 months and then I get tired of things. So, it's now officially time for me to bust my butt in the gym again until after September. I'm so looking forward to it. I think working out is right up there with getting a root canal. I mean, you pay a membership to go somewhere that you sweat and feel like you are on the verge of death the entire time you are there. What sense does that make??? I don't know. I'm sure a man had something to do with that one. I have been dreading this and putting this off for so long, but I know I need to just give it up, get off the sofa and get my lazy ass back to the gym.
On that note,I have to go change into my spandex and go shake it at the gym. Ya'll think about me and feel bad for me okay?

Feeling better!

Okay, so I have been sick twice in the past two weeks. I thought once was enough but oh no...I have to get it twice. It's like God is punishing me for something. Everyone keeps asking me "well, did you get it from one of the kids at work?" Well, out of 6 other co-workers I am the only one who has been sick. Except for this one girl who is sick 365 days of the year. She is probablly the one I keep getting it from. She will totally blow her nose, throw the tissue away and keep on trucking like nothing happend. Hello people.....what ever happend to washing our hands???? I mean, she puts those germ infested hands in someone's mouth all day for a living. You would think she'd be a little more concious about keeping herself clean.
Sorry, that is my biggest pet peeve. Anyway, so now I am better. Of course I would get better the day AFTER valentine's day!!!! Yesterday all I could manage to do was lay in bed all day and watch 90210 reruns. Don't get wrong, I love me some 90210, but come on. I didn't get to do anything for Valentine's day! Then today, I wake up feeling like I could run the Boston Marathon! Give me a break!
So, today I finally get out of the house! Bart and I met his mom and dad at Whiteoak to watch that movie Gran Turismo. It was pretty good. Clint Eastwood reminded me of my Dad in that movie. Very close minded about young people and how rude they are. It was a great movie with a great message! I'm sure those of you who work with teenagers would love it! So, then we ran to TGI Friday's to get a quick bite and decided to go back to the theater to see the movie Taken. I have never gone to the movies twice in one day, but we figured what the heck...we don't have anything else to do. So we go back in the second time and Bart's mom had saved her cup from the first movie we went in. Well, I took it back up to the counter and asked for a refill. I'm sure it was obvious what I was doing seeing as there was no ice in the cup! Anyway, the girl asked if I wanted more ice and filled it rightup! So there, a tip on how to save money at the theater. Get the large size drink, keep the cp, and fill it up for free everytime you go back. Hey, with the economy like it is, every bit helps. haha. So then we go see the second movie..Taken. Our favorite of the day! It was great and it kept you in the edge of your seat the entire time.
All in all it was a great day. If I had to be sick on Valentine's day, then Bart did a pretty good job of making up for it today!!! Anyway, until next time.......

Stressed out!

Okay, so I haven't blogged in a while. I have been super busy with this Sweetheart banquet thing my church put on! Anyway, I have been so stressed about wedding stuff lately! I am even stressing about people's wedding's that aren't mine! Last night I dreamed about my Best friend's wedding that is a few weeks before mine! I called her the morning of the wedding to find out what time we needed to be ready and at the place she is getting married. She responded" I'm not really sure. Whenever you feel like it." Now that is totally not like my friend! So I was just walking around town with Bart and all of a sudden she calls me and tells me that she dosen't know what time her wedding is so she can't give me an answer. I'm yelling at her to be more responsible and to let me know something. We fight and hang up and I'm crying because my Fiance and I have both just missed her wedding because it took place while we were fighting. When I say crying, I mean bawling my eyes out like a baby!
Are weddings supposed to be like this? I think maybe it is just me. I want everything to be perfect not only for me but my friend too! I know I need to stop worrying about things because whatever is going to happen is going to happen! Every night I feel like I am dreaming something drifferent. Maybe it is a good thing because there is no way my real wedding could have anything happen as bad as the stuff in my dreams. So on the big day when the flowers aren't right or Bart and me flub our lines up, it will seem like not such a big deal!
So, also on my plate right now(like I don't have enough) is the Relay for life. I am on the comitte for the Garner Relay for life. It's a walk that benefits the American Cancer society and it encourages survivors to have Hope! I love this cause and I don't want to give it up, but I think maybe with a wedding I bit off more than I can chew. Kelli and I are in charge of pretty much all the entertainment that happens for two days! So we have been on the phone scheduling DJ's, dancing groups, singers, etc. I know it will all be worth it in the end but right now it's a hassle.
My house is a complete wreck because of all the things I have going on. My Momma would kill me graveyard dead if she saw my Laundry hamper right now. I haven't washed clothes, like really washed clothes in about 2 months. In fact, I HAVE to do it tonight becasue if I don't I am not going to have ANY underwear for tomorrow. THat's right. I had to sport the grannies today because that is all I had clean. I know...I'm so ashamed! I can't even sleep at night because I feel so bad about it. And then when I do finally get to sleep, I wake up because of some stupid wedding dream! HaHa! COuld it get any worse. J/K Anyway, I'm going to go tackle that laundry and make my momma (and my hamper) Proud!

My first time ever......

Okay, so this is my first time ever doing this whole blog thing. A good friend of mine did it. I liked it. So here goes. I came home today and on a whim I deleted my myspace profile. I just thought that myspace was really for a bunch of middleschoolers and all people ever do is get on there so they can stalk you. Now, I'm not ready to give up on Facebook (unlike some of my freinds)....you know who you are. haha! But I did decide it was time for me to grow up and delete the myspace account. I wonder if tomorrow when I get home it will be wierd not to check it. I don't know, probablly.

So, as most of you know I am getting married in September. Now I was on here reading another freinds blog and she is having nightmares about her upcoming nuptials and I thought that was funny because I have been having them too. Oh they range from where we had the ceremony and when I got to the reception I couldn't remember anything about it. I had to keep asking my friends if I had REALLY gotten married and if I did, did I look pretty? The next dream we only had 20 people show up and the car we rented to pick us up never came. We ended up walking to the reception and on the way my dress got dirty in a mud puddle. So as you can imagine I was releived to hear that someone else was going throught the same thing. I keep wondering what am I going to dream about this time? And with each dream it just gives me something more to stress and worry about actually happening! At least I am not alone.

I am really excited about trying out this new Blog thing. I stress TRYING OUT. I am a complete idiot when it comes to computers and I don't know if I'll ever figure out how to get the cute little pictures on here that I have seen. So bare with me and I promise it will get better! Anyway, until then....