Stressed out!

Okay, so I haven't blogged in a while. I have been super busy with this Sweetheart banquet thing my church put on! Anyway, I have been so stressed about wedding stuff lately! I am even stressing about people's wedding's that aren't mine! Last night I dreamed about my Best friend's wedding that is a few weeks before mine! I called her the morning of the wedding to find out what time we needed to be ready and at the place she is getting married. She responded" I'm not really sure. Whenever you feel like it." Now that is totally not like my friend! So I was just walking around town with Bart and all of a sudden she calls me and tells me that she dosen't know what time her wedding is so she can't give me an answer. I'm yelling at her to be more responsible and to let me know something. We fight and hang up and I'm crying because my Fiance and I have both just missed her wedding because it took place while we were fighting. When I say crying, I mean bawling my eyes out like a baby!
Are weddings supposed to be like this? I think maybe it is just me. I want everything to be perfect not only for me but my friend too! I know I need to stop worrying about things because whatever is going to happen is going to happen! Every night I feel like I am dreaming something drifferent. Maybe it is a good thing because there is no way my real wedding could have anything happen as bad as the stuff in my dreams. So on the big day when the flowers aren't right or Bart and me flub our lines up, it will seem like not such a big deal!
So, also on my plate right now(like I don't have enough) is the Relay for life. I am on the comitte for the Garner Relay for life. It's a walk that benefits the American Cancer society and it encourages survivors to have Hope! I love this cause and I don't want to give it up, but I think maybe with a wedding I bit off more than I can chew. Kelli and I are in charge of pretty much all the entertainment that happens for two days! So we have been on the phone scheduling DJ's, dancing groups, singers, etc. I know it will all be worth it in the end but right now it's a hassle.
My house is a complete wreck because of all the things I have going on. My Momma would kill me graveyard dead if she saw my Laundry hamper right now. I haven't washed clothes, like really washed clothes in about 2 months. In fact, I HAVE to do it tonight becasue if I don't I am not going to have ANY underwear for tomorrow. THat's right. I had to sport the grannies today because that is all I had clean. I know...I'm so ashamed! I can't even sleep at night because I feel so bad about it. And then when I do finally get to sleep, I wake up because of some stupid wedding dream! HaHa! COuld it get any worse. J/K Anyway, I'm going to go tackle that laundry and make my momma (and my hamper) Proud!